Last cycle's PMS was pretty bad. No anxiety attacks, or severe depression, but definitely lots of snapping, bitchiness, and general mood swings. It didn't last as long as it has been, and I credit the higher dose of Naltrexone for that, but there is still room for improvement. I may look into hCG for post-Peak PMS support this cycle. I just don't want it to become a cyclical thing (I'm trying to wind down on meds, not add more.)
Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. I am not a migraine sufferer. I had one in my whole lifetime, and it was one day while I was teaching Kindergarten, needed the teacher next door to take over my class while I turned all the lights out in the classroom and put my head on the desk. I was able to drive home and go to sleep after about an hour.
But yesterday was far, far worse. It started out like a normal headache (I don't usually even get headaches, so when I do get them, I complain about it... a lot.) The headache got progressively worse, and my parents were visiting for the day, so I was out at the stores looking at some area rugs with my Mom. I BARELY made it home from the store after stopping for gas - the headache was so strong I started to feel nauseous. I got home, ran upstairs to the bathroom, and threw up. (Sorry.) I hate throwing up, but usually if I'm sick and do throw up, I feel better afterwards. I did not feel better. If possible, the headache was getting even worse.
I stumbled down the hall to the bedroom as DH said goodbye to my parents (I felt SO BAD, but I just could not help it.) I had already taken 2 aspirin earlier in the day, but they did nothing. I had also just started my period a few hours earlier.
DH came upstairs to get me comfortable in bed... but when I layed down, the headache got so bad I thought I was going to die. Literally. My head was pounding so much and NOTHING would take the pain away. I started to get more nauseous from the pain. DH sat me up in bed, and I asked him for a trash can. All at once, I felt a rush of blood from my period (sorry, again), cramps all throughout my lower abdomen and pelvis, nausea, and an insane headache... I tried to take two Motrin because I didn't want anymore aspirin since my period had just started.
A minute after I took the Motrin, I was back in the bathroom, throwing up. It was at that point that I got extremely dizzy and had to lay back against the tub. The headache began to subside just a bit, and I remember DH picking me up from the floor because I had passed out for a few seconds.
When he carried me back to bed, he propped me up, and started rubbing some essential oils on my feet (largest pores in the skin). He used rosemary, lavendar, and peppermint to ward off the nausea. I remember hearing him on the phone with his mother, asking her what he should do, and she gave him some quick Jin-Shin J'yitzu techniques to try, and the next thing I knew, the headache slowed down enough for me to fall asleep (sitting up in bed). I woke up 20 minutes later and was wiped out but feeling SO much better.
So... talk about suffering! I was prepared for the start of this new cycle to be one that I would "dive" into and experience the suffering, as my therapist had suggested. I didn't realize it would be the absolute worst pain I'd ever felt in my life!!
And in other news, here is a gift I received in the mail last week:
I'll give you two hints. It's not Salsa. And, it's from Sew.