(You can read more about our wedding and see pictures here.)
Today is our Fifth Wedding Anniversary. And since we began trying to build our family when we got married, it also marks the completion of our 5th year of infertility. In the past, I would say that this makes today bittersweet. But today, I choose to rejoice.
After all, my husband and I have survived more in the past 5 years of marriage than most couples I know have had to deal with in 45 years. And we're still standing. Our love for each other and for God has grown exponentially. Our understanding of our crosses, as being sources of spiritual growth, has come so very far.
I am reading "The Temperament God Gave You." It is amazing to see just how God is using our crosses to humble us and to better us. As a Choleric I have always tended to celebrate in my accomplishments and resort to believing all good things in my life came to me because of my own dedication, perseverance, and talents. God knew just how best to bring me back to total reliance and trust in Him, by allowing me to see that no matter how much I do, how much I spend, how obsessed I become - I cannot become a mother all on my own.
As a Sanguine, my husband is extremely optimistic, but lacks follow-through. In his youth, he tended to go along with the crowd in his spiritual beliefs, and found love and happiness in the wrong sources, justifying himself along the way. But through our crosses, he has come to know God better than ever, and once he realized that all the love and Truth in the world could be found in Him, he has become one of the most devout Catholics I have the pleasure to know.
My husband and I balance each other so well that sometimes it takes my breath away. God knew all along that he was meant to be my husband and I was meant to be his wife. My Melancholic tendencies can lead to perfectionism at its ugliest, and my husband has often wondered (aloud) if I will "ever be satisfied." I am learning to hone these weaknesses, through my childlessness, and as in the past I used to dwell on what ISN'T, now I try to focus on what IS - to see what is truly important, and to work to improve my life in ways that I can.
One of my husband's greatest strengths is his ability to forgive and forget. And thank God for that, because he has had plenty to forgive me!
Today, we will celebrate the marriage God gave us. We will revel in this amazing journey we've made it through in one piece, and know that no matter WHAT lies ahead, we will survive it. What an awesome day, indeed!! FIVE YEARS of some of the most painful suffering known to man... Thank you, God, for carrying us through!!
Happy 5th Anniversary, to my cheerful, hopeful, outgoing, loving, nurturing husband. Our marriage has stood the test of time, and will forever:
(My gift to hubby: 5th "Wooden" Anniversary)