Thursday, June 30, 2011

And the Ball Has Dropped.

PTI denial appeal was denied.

The initial court time was 9:00am but it was postponed for 1:30pm. I had the afternoon off to study some more before my Ultrasound Physics Registry Exam tonight at 5:30pm, so I quickly made the decision that losing out $200 for the test registration was worth being at court with DH. (I couldn't take off work to be there this morning, because other people's ovaries don't care about my personal life ;) - and, I love that I can be available for people when they need it.)

I tried so hard to not break down after the ruling, to be strong for DH, just as I had told him beforehand that even the worst case scenario would mean that someday we can attempt fostering. And I wasn't lying. I really felt, before we went in, that everything would be ok, NO MATTER WHAT the outcome. But for some reason (um, maybe because there was a friggin' PREGNANT LADY sitting right smack in front of me in the courtroom the entire time- what the hell?????!!!) I just lost it thinking about not being able to adopt.

Friends, I need your prayers now more than ever. I know God has a plan for us. Please pray that He will bring lightness out of this darkness.

Mary, Undoer of Knots, pray for us.
St Joseph, pray for us.
St Anthony, pray for us.
St Rita, pray for us.

35 comments:

Lisa said...

I'm so sorry. Any hope for a reversal of the ruling? So many prayers, A.

Leila @ Little Catholic Bubble said...

Oh, no. I am so very sorry sweetie. We won't stop praying over here...

This_Cross_I_Embrace said...

No, Lisa. This was the appeal.

Now it either needs to "settle" outside court or go to trial. Either way, it's on his permanent record.

God Alone Suffices said...

Oh no...I'm so sorry. I'll definitely be praying for you.

Jennie Ruth said...

praying for you guys.

Patiently Waiting said...

Prayers. I'm so sorry.

Perfect Power in Weakness said...

Oh, TCIE. I was so sad to read this as I was hopeful the appeal would come through and you could put this awful chapter behind you. Apparently, that is not the plan of the Man upstairs, so now I'm praying extra hard for a healthy pregnancy!!

CM said...

Praying for you!

Rebecca @ The Road Home said...

Oh I am so so sorry. You are in our prayers.

Hebrews 11:1 said...

Praying for you, stat!!

More Than Anything said...

Awh crap A, I'm sorry!!

Still praying for you and your DH!

ALIVEINHOPE said...

My heart and my prayers go out to you and DH... I'm so sorry.

Joy Beyond the Cross said...

I'm sorry and will keep up the prayers.

JellyBelly said...

You've got my prayers!!!

Faith makes things possible said...

I'm so very sorry! I'm praying for you both extra!!

Julie said...

I haven't been in your shoes so I don't know how you feel, but I know the sadness of realizing that God is asking you to carry a certain cross forever...not just for a indefinite time.
I pray for peace and healing of you and your DH's heart! Also praying that God brings you MORE JOY through HIS blessing in HIS timing of what HIS plan is for you!

E said...

Oh.no. I am so sorry, this is awful. Praying. St. Maximillan Kolbe pray for A & R.

Made For Another World said...

Praying for you tonight. So sorry about the news.

Patiently Waiting...... said...

I am sorry. I am so so sorry. Prayers for you and your husband.

Chasing said...

I am so sorry. I can't believe this. I am committing right now (until you are delivered from these crosses) to praying the St. Michael prayer daily for you guys.

barbie said...

I'm so so sorry, I with I knew why such things happen. As always I will pray for you and your dh!

Cecilia said...

If it goes to trial and he's acquitted - would that open the way for adoption again. Is it only convictions that they care about or arrests to? This seems ridiculous!!

Corrupt from start to finish on all sides here. Ugh.

Praying very hard for you.

Tridentine Wife said...

Argh! Are you kidding me? You have been put through the ringer, I am stepping up the prayers for you. Saying a Hail Mary right now to hopefully give you a bit of peace. I am so sorry A.

Amazing Life said...

Praying and offering up my rough night and tattered emotions for you and dh.

Silvana said...

My prayers and thoughts are with you.

The Skirts said...

Just got back from mass, where I offered up communion for you and your husband. Then I came home and read this. So sorry! We've been through something similar in my family, and it's a special kind of torture. Many thoughts and prayers for you both!

Second Chances said...

Well crap. But you have the right attitude that everything will be ok. It's amazing how God can take a truly awful situation and turn it into something beautiful and useful. We've SO been there. But I know when you're in it it's not pretty. Offering sacrifice and deep prayer for you.

"His Perfect Timing" said...

Im SO sorry. You will be in my prayers. I'm praying that God has the most amazing surprise for you up His sleeve ... And that you can see it SOON!!!

St. Rita's Roses said...

No, no, no, no. We are praying hard for you A.

Clara said...

I am so sorry! I am saying extra prayers for you both!

Mary said...

ugh. My heart breaks for you :( how awful. So sorry. Praying for you and your husband.

E said...

On this solemnity of the Sacred Heart, at the Hour of Mercy--3 p.m.--I am offering a prayer for you and your husband right now.

This is awful news.

I suppose that if he were to obtain a pardon down the road, it wouldn't open the door to adoption?

TCIE, I know this may sound trite, but hold on tight to Him. There's nothing anyone can say apart from that. He knows this pain, this betrayal. He was there first. He's gone before you. He is carrying this with you, and it will NOT be fruitless. It will be something entirely new.

Elizabeth

Isaiah 55:8-9 said...

I am so sorry! Praying for you...

Lauren @ Magnify the Lord with Me said...

I am so sorry. I'm praying for y'all.

doctorgianna said...

Oh A, I'm so sorry. I'm just reading your posts now after my vacation. Prayers coming your way.