and so little time in which to actually sit down and do it.
I have a couple of very important posts that I am meaning to write, but now is not the time.
Instead, I want to ask for your prayers if I may. One of my husband's and my HUGE sufferings is our finances/his work. He is in business with his father (and mother, who is a "partner"), and he literally has to fight tooth to nail to get any money when he needs it. Forget about a paycheck or a salary, he doesn't get one.
Well, a few weeks ago one of their clients paid them a good chump of change. DH told me he was going to take most of it because, after all, WE needed it with the house purchase looming. Well, he got less than 1/8th of it. When he went back this week to ask for more, he found out they had spent it all. Yes, that's right, my in-laws felt it more important to pay two months of their mortgage, on a home they intend to give to my sister-in-law as soon as we move out, rather than a)pay DH what is OWED to him, b)make sure we can get the house we so badly want, and c)have the only thing in our lives that has the potential to bring us out of the emotional and spiritual rut we've been in.
They have made it abundantly clear, if they haven't already, that we, to them, are worthless without children.
I don't often talk about finances on this blog, but it has been and continues to be one of the MAJOR major sources of suffering in our lives. Thank God for my jobs!! I seriously praise God every day because without my jobs, we would have absolutely no money and no way to pay our bills.
But my jobs are still not enough to pay the mortgage in full and all the bills.
And I am so scared of what could happen once we are in the house. So. very. scared.
I've emailed a lawyer and asked for advice, and we will probably have to bring him in as a 3rd party to sort all of this nonsense out and finally hold my in-laws accountable for everything they've been doing. But I have knots in my stomach thinking about this. They already make us feel worthless. I'm scared to death of what this will do to our relationship with them... can you believe that?? I'M scared to death of what hiring an objective 3rd party to sit them down and let them know they can no longer get away with this, but for the past 4.5 years they've felt just fine in treating us this way.
Please pray... I knew it was too soon to talk about the house being a definite thing...