Sunday, July 18, 2010

Prayer Buddies and St. Anne Novena

Like last time, I have been struggling in my prayers for my assigned Prayer Buddy this time around. I think I know why, too, but I won't elaborate because I don't want to give too much away.

But I've also started to see yet again the ramifications that signing up this go-around has had on me. I was dreading being a part of this again (even though I played a part in its organization!), because the last two times I had to sit and watch everyone else's prayers get answered while mine still went unanswered. I had a strong feeling it would happen once again, and already we are seeing miracles left and right from this installment of Prayer Buddies! It is a glorious thing to see, it truly is, and I rejoice with each and every one of you. But it also becomes very personal to me when I see God handing out the blessings one by one in a SMALLER group of women all participating in prayers for each other - and (seemingly) BLATANTLY skipping right over me.

And as I was sitting at Mass this morning, contemplating this very thing, while FORCING myself to pray for my Prayer Buddy... I realized something. I did not cry today, even though there was a baptism. (Baptisms always get me.) There was a SMILE on my face as the baby was anointed, not a wince of pain.
This truly is a miracle.

I do feel as if there is more love in my heart, replacing the anger and bitterness that once occupied it. My intentions for the Prayer Buddy praying for me was HEALING for my husband and I both. In every sense of the word. And I do feel as if my heart and mind are in the process of healing.

As for my body, well, after days of the most DRY toilet paper I've ever seen in my life... today I finally saw 10KL stretchy, clear, lubricative mucus again. I've been taking Chinese herbs, FertileCM, drinking tons of water, and have seen NOTHING except a scant amount Friday morning (before post-coital exam) up until this afternoon. So perhaps the prayers for physical healing are also working.

Today is the Anniversary of my Grandfather's passing- he died very unexpectedly 24 years ago. One week before my 5th birthday. I am happy to remember him on this day (I do have some very distinct memories of him- he was a saintly man), and to think of he and my grandmother (who just passed January 2009) in paradise together.

And it just dawned on me- since it is 1 week from my birthday, it is 9 days before the Feast of St. Anne, mother of our Blessed Lady, who suffered for years in trying to conceive. In her honor I would like to post a Novena, and ask all of you to join me in it- for the intentions of your Prayer Buddy (whether they are infertile or not, our Lord's grandmother can certainly intercede for any one of our intentions).

Novena To St. Anne:

First, recite this prayer.
Glorious St. Anne,
filled with compassion for those who invoke you,
with love for those who suffer,
heavily laden with the weight of my troubles,
I knee at your feet and humbly beg you
to take my present need under your special protection...
(State your intention here.)

Vouchsafe to recommend it to your daughter,
the Blessed Virgin Mary,
and lay it before the throne of Jesus.
Cease not to intercede for me until my request is granted.
Above all, obtain for me the grace to one day meet God face to face,
and with you and Mary and all the angels
and saints praising Him through all eternity.

Amen


Next, recite the prayer that relates to the day that you are at.

DAY ONE

Great Saint Anne,
engrave indelibly on my heart
and in my mind the words that have reclaimed
and sanctified so many sinners:
"What shall it profit a man to gain the whole world
if he lose his own soul?"
May this be the principle fruit of these prayers
by which I will strive to honor you during this novena.
At your feet renew my resolution to invoke you daily,
not only for the success of my temporal affairs
and to be preserved from sickness and suffering,
but above all, that I may be preserved from all sin,
that I may succeed in working out my eternal salvation
and that I will receive the special grace of...
(State your intention here.)

O most powerful Saint Anne,
do not let me lose my soul,
but obtain for me the grace of winning my way to heaven,
there with you, you blessed spouse,
and your glorious daughter,
to sing the praise of the most holy
and adorable Trinity forever and ever.

Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.




DAY TWO

Glorious Saint Anne,
how can you be otherwise than overflowing
with tenderness toward sinners like myself,
since you are the grandmother of Him who shed His blood for them,
and the mother of her whom the saints call advocate of sinners?
To you, therefore, I address my prayers with confidence.
Vouchsafe to commend me to Jesus and Mary so that,
at your request, I may be granted remission of my sins,
perseverance, the love of God, charity for all mankind,
and the special grace of...
(State your intention here.)

which I stand in need at the present time.
O most powerful protectress,
let me not lose my soul,
but obtain for me that through the merits of Jesus Christ
and the intercession of Mary,
I may have happiness of seeing them,
of loving and praising them with your through all eternity. Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.




DAY THREE

Beloved of Jesus, Mary and Joseph,
mother of the Queen of Heaven,
take us and all who are dear to us under your special care.
Obtain for us the virtues you instilled in the heart of her
who was destined to become Mother of God,
and the graces with which you were endowed.
Sublime model of Christian womanhood,
pray that we may imitate your example in our homes and families,
listen to our petitions,
(State your intention here.)

Guardian of the infancy
and childhood of the most Blessed Virgin Mary,
obtain the graces necessary for all who enter the marriage state,
that imitating your virtues they may sanctify their homes
and lead the souls entrusted to their care to eternal glory. Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.




DAY FOUR

Glorious Saint Anne,
I kneel in confidence at your feet,
for you also have tasted the bitterness and sorrow of life.
My necessities, the cause of my tears, are...
(State your intention here.)

Good Saint Anne,
you who did suffer much during the twenty years
that preceded your glorious maternity,
I beseech you, by all your sufferings and humiliations,
to grant my prayer.
I pray to you,
through you love for your glorious spouse Saint Joachim,
through your love for your immaculate child,
through the joy you did feel at the moment of her happy birth,
not to refuse me.
Bless me, bless my family and all who are dear to me,
so that some day we may all be with you in the glory of heaven,
for all eternity.

Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.




DAY FIVE

Great Saint Anne,
how far I am from resembling you.
I so easily give way to impatience and discouragement;
and so easily give up praying
when God does not at once answer my request.
Prayer is the key to all heavenly treasures and I cannot pray,
because my weak faith and lack of confidence
fail me at the slightest delay of divine mercy.
O my powerful protectress,
come to my aid,
listen to my petition...
(State your intention here.)

make my confidence and fervor,
supported by the promise of Jesus Christ,
redouble in proportion as the trial
to which God in His goodness subjects me is prolonged,
that I may obtain like you more than I can venture to ask for.
In the future I will remember
that I am made for heaven and not for earth;
for eternity and not for time;
that consequently I must ask, above all,
the salvation of my soul
which is assured to all who pray properly
and who persevere in Pray.

Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.




DAY SIX

Glorious Saint Anne,
mother of the Mother of God,
I beg you to obtain through your powerful intercession
the pardon of my sins and the assistance I need in my troubles...
(State your intention here.)

What can I not hope for
if you deign to take me under your protection?
The Most High has been please to grant the prayers of sinners,
whenever you have been charitable enough to be their advocate.

Kneeling at your feet,
I beg you to help me in all spiritual and temporal dangers;
to guide me in the true path of Christian perfection,
and finally to obtain for me
the grace of ending my life with the death of the just,
so that I may contemplate face to face your beloved Jesus
and daughter Mary in your loving companionship throughout eternity.

Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.




DAY SEVEN

O Good Saint Anne,
so justly called the mother of the infirm,
the cure for those who suffer from disease,
look kindly upon the sick for whom I pray;
alleviate their sufferings;
cause them to sanctify their sufferings by patience
and complete submission to the divine will;
finally deign to obtain health for them
and with it the firm resolution to honor Jesus, Mary,
and yourself by the faithful performance of duties.
But, merciful Saint Anne,
I ask you above all for the salvation of my soul,
rather than bodily health,
for I am convinced that this fleeting life is given us
solely to assure us a better one.
Now, we cannot obtain that better life
without the help of God’s graces.
I earnestly beg them of you for the sick and for myself,
especially the petition for which I am making in this novena...
(State your intention here.)

through the merits of our Lord Jesus Christ,
through the intercession of His Immaculate Mother,
and through the efficacious and powerful mediation.
O glorious Saint Anne,

Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.




DAY EIGHT

Remember, O Saint Anne,
you whose name signifies grace and mercy,
that never was it known
that anyone who fled to your protection,
implored your help,
and sought your intercession was left unaided.
Inspired with this confidence,
I fly unto you, good, and kind mother;
I take refuge at your feet,
burdened with the weight of my sins.
O holy mother of the Immaculate Virgin Mary,
despise not my petition...
(State your intention here.)

but hear me and grant my prayer.

Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.




DAY NINE

Most holy mother of the Virgin Mary,
glorious Saint Anne, I, a miserable sinner,
confiding in your kindness,
choose you today as my special advocate.
I offer and consecrate my person
and all my interests to your care and maternal solicitude.
I hope To serve you and honor you all my life
for the love of your most holy daughter
and to do all in my power to spread devotion to you.
O my very good mother and advocate,
deign to accept me as your servant,
and to adopt me as you child.
O glorious Saint Anne, I beg you,
by the passion of my most loving Jesus,
the Son of Mary, your most holy daughter,
to assist me in all the necessities
both of my body and my soul.
Venerable Mother,
I beg you to obtain for me the favor I seek in this novena...
(State your intention here.)

and the grace of leading a life perfectly conformable
in all things to the divine will.
I place my soul in your hands
and in those of your kind daughter.
I confide it to you,
above all at the moment
when it will be to separate itself from my body in order that,
appearing under your patronage before the Supreme Judge,
He may find it worthy of enjoying His Divine Presence
in your holy companionship in Heaven.

Amen.

Recite the...

Our Father...
Hail Mary...
Glory Be to the Father...

Pray for us, Saint Anne!
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.



Statue of St. Anne and child Mary, which belonged to my grandmother, and was given to me a few weeks before she passed.

28 comments:

Erin said...

I've been praying for healing for you for quite awhile! I am glad it is starting to work.

If you can, go to St. Jean Baptiste in the upper east side. There is a shrine to St. Anne. :)

Awaiting a Child of God:) said...

I totally understand your feelings about others getting answered prayers and not you. We all have been there or are there, so your feelings are so normal. Just remember, if we got to control God's timing, our lives would not end up in His hands because it wouldn't include HIS plan. You are blessed and you are in God's hands and he has a precious plan for you...I will pray for you and for patience for you. Oh and I LOVE the statue...beautiful...I want one!

Awaiting a Child of God:) said...

Oh and how do I become a part of the Prayer Buddy thing...I want to be involved...I'd love to do this!!

Joy Beyond the Cross said...
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Joy Beyond the Cross said...

Sorry - I deleted my first comment - I think the ending sounded a little too over the top cheery. I think it is the coke and caffeine that have me a bit over enthusiastic!

Okay, now I feel guilty that Nicole and I dragged you into this. Sorry, please forgive me! I do think the more prayer the better, so hopefully your own little miracle is on its way soon. And I do know who your prayer buddy is (not me), but I can attest - she is a DOOSY! Nicole, Shannon, and this person - I think they are all great prayer warriors! I am starting the St. Anne novena today as well, it is a beautiful novena. God Bless you TCIE and hang in there!

Sew said...

If you only knew the people praying their A$$'es off for you! hahahaha ;)

Faith isn't believing God can...It's believing He will.....

You didn't just participate in PB, you are the author of it! ;) The CEO! :) Look at what one woman's good intentions have done, the graces are mulitplying and though it is hard to see you must believe that you are not left behind, but that God is just saving the best for last. ;)

This_Cross_I_Embrace said...

Hebrews, I don't live in SC, but I am going to Greenville for the FertilityCare conference this week :)
I am a born and bred NYer, now living in NJ. With both parents born and raised in the Bronx, you'd better believe I'm a Yankee fan through and through!

Thanks everyone for the kind words. I hope I didn't offend anyone.

This_Cross_I_Embrace said...

Awaiting, I think you just missed the sign-up for this Prayer Buddy installment- but don't worry! Advent PBs will be back with a vengeance soon :)

barbie said...

You are in my prayers DAILY prayer buddies or no, always! 1

Jenny said...

Thanks for posting that novena... I'll be praying for healing for you too!

And... I went to Yankee spring training one year... in my former life. I followed them all the way to Florida for a week! :)

Little JoAnn said...

I went to St. Jean Baptiste right when I first got married. It was a flunk, I just happened to walk by. How funny. This is the first shrine for St. Anne that I ever went to and the first statue I ever bought myself (of Saint Ann, I bought there!) Thanks for reminding us about it, Erin.
TCIE we are ALL your prayer buddies!

Hebrews 11:1 said...

Oh I see. Enjoy the conference! If I remember right Greenville in July is extremely humid. But it was so beautiful there!

I LOVE that you are a Yankee fan!! I am pretty sure it's in my DNA, my dad was a fan back from the Mantle/Martin/Ford etc. days.

Joba Chamberlain is from Nebraska you know!! :-)

Ann - Building a Nest said...

I feel like I might get slammed for this by others, but wanted you to know that I completely understand. I didn’t participate in the PB thing for the same reason (that and I do not like the address thing – but you knew that was coming). It was a preemptive measure of sorts as I just felt sorry for the person who would get me! You are a wonderful person to still jump in and help it all out. I have no doubt your complete joy will come to you and I am so happy to hear you are feeling healing in your life.

Sew said...

You offended me, that's it I can't read this blog anymore....

LMBO! ;)

JellyBelly said...

I'm so in on this novena!!!! I've been falling asleep while saying the rosary (I know, not a good idea to say it before bed, my poor prayer buddy!).

As always, I continue to pray for you. I wish I could take this heavy cross from you or get pg so it can finally be your turn.

Sending you hugs and prayers, my friend.

Mrs. Mike said...

Joining you in this novena.

And I am afraid/ashamed to admit that I feel sort of awkward about the PB thing for many of the same reasons (if I'm surmising correctly)...that and the privacy thing.

the misfit said...

I understand where you're coming from. I've definitely viewed the decision to participate as more "fraught" than others apparently have, and decided to sit this round out (I think I need to keep working on my prayer life before I can do my prayer buddy justice. Which is good news for you, because it makes it more likely that you have a real prayer warrior assigned to you!).

I don't know what God has planned for you, and, to tell the truth, I have some serious questions for Him on that score. I have a feeling, though, that when in time we find out the plan (if you'll be so good as to share it with us!) it will be legendary.

And I am so glad to hear that you're feeling healing for your heart. What a great intention.

mrsblondies said...

I'm definitely joining you in the novena and I pray for you every time I go to adoration. I definitely understand not being sure about participating since you are feeling left behind. I'm glad you are feeling some healing in your heart. I'll remember that to pray for healing for you and your DH when I pray for you. Beautiful statue and what a wonderful reminder of your dear grandmother.

Leila @ Little Catholic Bubble said...

God bless your grandpa's soul! He's praying for you, like the rest of us. ;)

And I am so full of joy that you had a smile on your face during the baptism. That is wonderful, as is the good fertility signs! Let the healing continue, even if it's slow and steady, with steps backwards now and then.

You are a gift to all of us.

Lauren @ Magnify the Lord with Me said...

This is totally not reverant- please don't be offended. But as I read the NOvena prayer, I got this image of delivery girls in Heaven. Anne listening intently, then running to Mary, who listens and runs off to deliver the message to Jesus! I get it, I do...I love the Novena...but the image is just cracking me up!

THANK YOU for sharing your heart and this beautiful novena with us!! And happy early birthday! :)

Tridentine Wife said...

I love the St. Anne novena, I prayed it so many times before the babies and during a very scary pg. It is such a beautiful prayer that brings so many emotions and it's why I named my daughter Anne.

Little JoAnn said...

I love how honest you are TCIE. To me, it reveals just how much grace God has flooded your soul with. I see your Cross so clearly when I read your posts AND I ALSO see Jesus' Victory in Your Life along with It.

keep calm and carry on... said...

oh lady, i'm totally with you in feeling left out while everyone else's prayers are answered... i almost didn't do the pb this time but figured i could use all the prayers i could get, and wanted to concentrate on praying for someone else for awhile... maybe my prayers work better for others fertility wise :)

thanks for posting the novena - i started it yesterday and had my husband start it as well.

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Elisabeth said...

TCIE,
I JUST now realized we have met. :-P I never scanned this blog enough to put 2 and 2 together. I am so glad to hear that you were able to be in the presence of the baptism and feel love! As I read this (before I thought of you) I was thinking of some things from the retreat. I am adding you to my intentions in praying the St Anne novena!

Suzie-Q T-Pie said...

Thank you for sharing this Novena, it is beautiful!
I'm so glad to hear that you are finding some healing, and no tears during the baptism! :) You are amazing and I think this PB thing is just what the dr orderd! lol

Danya said...

Just remember that "the last shall be first." God must have a very special plan in mind for you. Your great suffering DOES mean something, since you offer it up so beautifully. I continue to send healing prayers your way!

Living Advent said...

Happy Birthday! Sorry I'm so out of the loop. I totally missed prayer buddies this time. I've been thinking about you a lot over the last week and praying for you. I hope that you have a wonderful day.