The meeting was somewhat anti-climatic today. But the good news is, we were not told definitively NO.
Instead, the decision will hinge upon a few things that will transpire over the next week/s or so. All we can do is hope and pray. It's in God's hands from here...
I did, at one point, burst into tears when our Social Worker mentioned to the branch Director that she may want us to wait several more months to re-evaluate. Later when we were alone with the Social Worker, she said she didn't mean to suggest that we absolutely could not continue at this time, and that she had a good feeling the Director was leaning towards letting us continue now (pending the few additional "things" that need to be checked up on). She also made me feel a lot better by telling us this is one of the most difficult things they do in their job... putting someone's home study on hold. So, I felt better at least knowing we're not the only people in the world that this has happened to.
They also did empathize with us, and let us know they realized how tough this must be on us both.
Thank you all SO MUCH for your prayers. I probably wouldn't have made it through that without you behind me spiritually.
Oh yeah, I lied. I cried twice. Toward the end of the meeting the Director looked at me and asked how this set-back has been affecting me personally (remember, I said the real issue pertains to my husband, not me).
I broke down. I said that I felt so hopeless, because adoption has always been something SO SPECIAL to me, something I really held as an ideal. Where most people can have the experience of pregnancy and childbirth, not all people get to experience adoption, and I have known for a long time that that is something I felt called to do. I then expressed how lost I felt in not understanding why God put this hurdle in our path... I was a blubbery mess.