Thursday, January 28, 2010

No Point

As in, there is absolutely NO POINT to this blog post, because I cannot and will not delve into details here. I'm sorry. I just can't.

But I did want to just fill you all in on the fact that Tuesday night, something happened. Something bad. Something VERY. very. bad.
Something that has not only humiliated my DH and me, but also may very well have ruined our lives.
Because this something? It has GREAT potential to be a reason we may never, ever be able to adopt.

That's really all I can say. All I can ask for is your prayers that God please deliver us from this.

At this point? It is just comical. The day after this happened, I got the news about Sew. I mean, seriously, W.T.H??? I just envision God up there going, "OK, you get a baby. You get a baby. And now you... now you... and you, Sew?? Hmm... you get cancer. And you TCIE? How 'bout this?"

I realize that's not at all what's taking place up in Heaven right now. But man, how can it NOT feel like that?

My poor DH is having a major breakdown. I'd be right there with him had I not already had about 17 of them over the past 8 months.

I swear. I better go STRAIGHT to the pearly gates... I'm gonna have to speak with a Manager if I get dropped off in Purgatory after all of this.

28 comments:

Second Chances said...

Oh no, I'm so sorry TCIE. This stinks. I know you know this, but just remember that God is ALWAYS on our side! He is totally cheering for you and wants only good things for you. He will not control us, or others, so that's where the yuck comes in. I'm sorry you're in the yuck. He's sorry too.

mrsblondies said...

I'm so, so sorry. I wish that I could do something to help beyond just prayer.

Cathy said...

So, so sorry.

:(

Life In Mazes said...

My heart is just so heavy for you and your husband. I will continue to pray for both of you and this terrible situation that is making your so dreams so difficult to attain.
I have to keep believing that God is right beside you in your suffering. I do believe that your suffering is preparing you for the best feast in Heaven. He counts all your tears and longs to continue to embrace you.
Dear Lord, have mercy on my friend, TCIE. AMEN.

Jeremiah 29:11 said...

Oh no honey...I am so so sorry. Sending you prayers.

Complicated Life said...

I'm so so sorry. You have my prayers. I wish I could do more.

Sew said...

Because I love you so much I am going to comment through the word verification, even though I don't know why you are being SO stubborn about it. ;)

I do not believe in this case that action speak louder then words!! hahaha Totally going to let God off the hook.

I don't understand it, but I am so sorry for this. I.just.dont.understand. We just want to be mothers like everyone else out there. And maybe becoming parents isn't a right that I thought for so long.

Of course I realize it is not a right, but its slowly forcefully being beat into me....hahahaha

JellyBelly said...

Sending you prayers.

I wish that I was closer so I could give you a big hug too!

Sissy said...

I wish you could share more, but I understand. I hate that you and DH are in this kind of situation and will be praying for you.

prayerfuljourney said...

Praying for you too. My goodness...lots of "stuff" going on in blog-land..some good...some not so much. God is just challanging some more than others right now. He's testing our faith in Him. I know He's testing me. I'm not a good test taker either..so I'm not too sure how I'm doing. When God was handing out things he went by me he handed me MY BARREN LIFE! Ugh...sometimes I just hate it. Ugh. Anyway...I pray for all of us who are struggling in one way or another.

callmemama said...

I'm so sorry! I feel so helpless, but I will definitely pray for you!

Find joy in every journey said...

Oh, dear friend, I don't know what to say. I have no idea why you are being tested so much. Have you called CW yet? She was so helpful for us when we were in utter despair.
Wish we lived closer.

andnotbysight said...

I'm so sorry. I'll be praying!

Joy Beyond the Cross said...

I don't know what to say...besides I am sorry. I will go pray right now. All the Angels and Saints, please intercede for TCIE and bring her peace and hope in the midst of this trial! Hang in there...we are here for you.

Ann - Building a Nest said...

I'm so sorry. There just aren't enough words.

K and T said...

Stay the course..... I keep getting reminded that there is warfare going on out there so we need to rest in HIS arms.....
Keep choosing to trust.
It is OK to be angry and frustrated and annoyed..... Just keep laying it back down at the cross.
Daily choose to.
You can do this.
Stay the course.
HE is here with you.
xo

Praying for Hope said...

Geez, I'm so sorry, whatever it is. It's not supposed to be this rough. I wish I could make it go away for you. To say I'm thinking of you or praying for you isn't nearly enough.

Rachael said...

I am so sorry....
That just sucks.
You have always been so helpful to the ladies on the CF yahoo group, and I have been hoping for good things for you since you started posting there. I have been following your blog and praying for you and your hubby for a while, but I don't comment much. This entry needed a comment, though. I wish I had more to offer you.... I will continue to keep you in prayer--for wisdom to know what God is doing.... Oh, to know His mind... I am so sorry.

Leila said...

I am so very sorry. Storming heaven with prayers so that you might get some relief or find supernatural peace.

Mrs. Mike said...

TCIE...I don't know what to say other than I'm praying for you. I'm sure that's beginning to sound trite, but believe it. My heart just breaks for you. Why God brings those who love Him most to the edge of the cliff and then seemingly pushes them off...I won't/can't understand.

But I am still holding onto a glimmer of hope for you. Some how...some way.

I wish I could hug you through the screen.

inallthingsgood said...

oh, no. I am so sorry. So we've never actually met, but I really just want to sit next to you, hold hands and cry right now.
I don't understand any of this.
Lord, have mercy.

expatbarrenness said...

I have been praying for you and will keep praying for you - all I can say is that you are not alone in this, as painful as this moment is. I am so sorry things just don't seem to be turning around - I am so hoping that everything (whatever it is) will sort itself out.

inallthingsgood said...

P.S. I was just reading this psalm and praying for you...

psalm 143

4 Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me; My heart is appalled within me.
5 I remember the days of old; I meditate on all Your doings; I muse on the work of Your hands.
6 I stretch out my hands to You; My soul longs for You, as a parched land.
11 For the sake of Your name, O LORD, revive me. In Your righteousness bring my soul out of trouble.

Nixy said...

praying for you.

LifeHopes said...

I am so sorry. I promise to pray. I know He will rescue you from whatever this is.

the misfit said...

I'm so sorry. I wish there were something I could say. If there's anything any of us can do to help, you just tell us, right? It's not my place to guess, of course, what might be going on, but I know some lawyers, and stuff, if that sort of thing would help. Might know one up your way, not sure. Anyway, obviously, will be praying. I hope the cloud lifts soon.

Shannon said...

oh sweetie. i'm just reading this. I don't know what to say. I pray that Our Lady can somehow console you...

prayerfuljourney said...

I've been thinking about you and praying for you. I hope someday this is all behind you and you'll have a little one to love and carry on in life.

BTW...I just wanted to let you know that I changed my blog address too: livinggodswill.blogspot.com. I was messing around with my blog and figured out how I could do that not realizing my friends couldn't access my blog now. LOL!

Lots of prayers going your way!!!