|Well, spot turned into full-fledged flow this morning. I knew I was in for trouble when I woke up and my breasts weren't sore anymore.|
I did cry. The part that got me was the strangeness of my post-Peak phase this month... I have NEVER had peak-type mucus post-peak, except for the occasional pre-menstrual endometrial fluid... and I've never had spotting as early as 11 dpo. My post-Peak phase was only 10 days, which means my progesterone probably was low. The other stinker is that now this cycle I won't be able to do Letrezole as planned, since I was supposed to take one dose on day 3 (which is technically today). My appt. with Dr. J is Thursday. I guess we'll plan on Letrezole for July.
Here are some good things that I can glean out of this weekend:
1) I am now more motivated than ever to get my Creighton Model FertilityCare Center up and running. I will speak to Dr. J about possibly working as a liason with her office, too, which had been mentioned before (that would be SUCH a blessing!)
2) With no school job in Sept, Rob and I can plan our trip to Cancun (his family has a timeshare they won't be using then) that month! Man, do we badly need a vacation! (And no, I don't think going on vacation will make me pregnant, just to clear that up!)
3) My cycles are becoming much more normal in length... so I don't have too long to wait until Peak Day :)
4) I can now have a few drinks and celebrate Memorial Day in style.
and 5)... now I have a chance to go visit the St. Gianna shrine in PA before Peak. I did not pray as much as I normally do this past cycle, so I need to get back into a praying habit.
So, I suppose this is an example of embracing my cross. What could have been the worst weekend of my life has now exhibited at least 5 motivators for me to continue on and learn from every experience God hands me. Because really, I can just sit and wallow for longer, but nobody likes a sourpuss.